What has changed ?

Earlier I used to feel awesome while writing an email to you. Because I know that you were also waiting for my email. But now, I feel miserable while sending an email to you as you changed a lot and there is no enthusiasm that you used to have. In your language, I would say sending and receiving ends are not at the same frequency… Wonder what has changed? Is it the fear that you may have to take the responsibility of me? Or the feel that you showed is untrue? How can I know?  

I don’t have any kind of relationship with you. If I can get the happiness that I am getting from you..from my parents/friends/ I would definitely approach them instead of bugging you. I can NOT order or force you which I do with my parents. The relationship between you and me is not that strong where I can order you to talk to me. It is just like a weak thread. If we both try to hold it with care, it will be there forever. The stronger I try to hold the sooner you will go away from me. I cannot force you. I can just hold and look for you to do the same.

Why did not my feelings toward you are not changing like yours? Why can’t I stay without talking to you? Why would I check my inbox more than 100 times a day?